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My good lord. I hope you're right.

If I get out of this one, I swear I'll be a much better person.

I've been on the verge of telling my girlfriend what happened. The guilt is too strong.

The encounter with that chick literally lasted 10 seconds. I felt guilty as shit, pulled out, got dressed and got out of there in 30 seconds.

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That was just a few days ago. And this whole HIV scare and guilt is the reason I said that.
if i were you, and i wanted to stay with her, i would never tell her about this but i would take the guilt and fear you feel as a lesson to not do it again.
 

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IliveForJuve

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I had a similar experience when I was 18, back when you had to wait like 6+ months for the all clear. Girl gave me the clap ( :sergio: )... and getting to know her after and the party lifestyle she led, I was paranoid as fuck that I was going to get the hiv too. Every little cold, ache, feeling of unwell, I was positive was a symptom. Turned out the doctors were right though. It’s fairly hard to contract it from PIV sex, unless very rough or there are open sores from what I was told and have read.

I wouldn’t stress too much about it.
Thanks for taking the time to write this. It has helped me a bit.

The thing that has caused me the most anxiety has been the possibility infecting my girlfriend. I had to find ways to use condoms with her. But I can only keep up the excuses for so long. I could never forgive myself if I ruined her life.

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if i were you, and i wanted to stay with her, i would never tell her about this but i would take the guilt and fear you feel as a lesson to not do it again.
Of course I want to stay with her. I could deal with the guilt knowing that I'm HIV free and won't infect her.
 

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I got so anxious today that I contacted the other chick and asked her to get retested (almost 4 weeks after the other test). I think she might do it tomorrow. I would suppose that's enough to feel HIV free.
have you ruled out another STD? If you feel like shit maybe you have the clap or something?

my guess is you’re feeling these pains due to your guilty conscience
 

IliveForJuve

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have you ruled out another STD? If you feel like shit maybe you have the clap or something?

my guess is you’re feeling these pains due to your guilty conscience
I got tested for everything, including hepatitis B. All negative.

The pain is real. Almost every joint of my body hurt (not at the same time, pain seemed to "move around"). I'm a bit better now. I noticed I was getting random sharp pain on thursday last week. But It was very sporadic, like 2-3 times a day. Then on Saturday night I took MDMA, and when I got home, all hell broke loose. I was aching everywhere. It didn't hurt a lot but all my joints were affected. Even my eyes got random sharp pain (that has gone away in the last 3 days tho).
 

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I got tested for everything, including hepatitis B. All negative.

The pain is real. Almost every joint of my body hurt (not at the same time, pain seemed to "move around"). I'm a bit better now. I noticed I was getting random sharp pain on thursday last week. But It was very sporadic, like 2-3 times a day. Then on Saturday night I took MDMA, and when I got home, all hell broke loose. I was aching everywhere. It didn't hurt a lot but all my joints were affected. Even my eyes got random sharp pain (that has gone away in the last 3 days tho).
maybe lay off the cocaine and ecstacy for a while?
 

IliveForJuve

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Doctors didn't say what it could be since they don't see any other symptoms.

Could it be stress? I've been really stressed these past 6 weeks. I thought I had another STD cause my penis hurt but turns out it was all caused by a Ketoconazole talcum powder my old urologist prescribed me. My dick hurt for days and got super dry. I even developed contact dermatitis sores. Doctor told me I had HPV warts, I freaked out but went to another doctor who told me it was the talcum powder that caused dermatitis. The so called warts (they were more like sores) disappeared in a matter of days.

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maybe lay off the cocaine and ecstacy for a while?
I must admit I had been doing cocaine once a week for consecutive weeks (like 4) but the last time I did MDMA was 6 months ago.

Still, I'm staying away from drugs forever now.

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Need to clarify: haven't done coke in the last 6 weeks.
 
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Doctors didn't say what it could be since they don't see any other symptoms.

Could it be stress? I've been really stressed these past 6 weeks. I thought I had another STD cause my penis hurt but turns out it was all caused by a Ketoconazole talcum powder my old urologist prescribed me. My dick hurt for days and got super dry. I even developed contact dermatitis sores. Doctor told me I had HPV warts, I freaked out but went to another doctor who told me it was the talcum powder that caused dermatitis. The so called warts (they were more like sores) disappeared in a matter of days.

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I must admit I had been doing cocaine once a week for consecutive weeks (like 4) but the last time I did MDMA was 6 months ago.

Still, I'm staying away from drugs forever now.

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Need to clarify: haven't done coke in the last 6 weeks.
Just get your lifestyle sorted out and you’ll be good to go. You’re mid-20s now, right? Time to start looking after yourself. The gym is a better high than coke/mdma anyways.
 

IliveForJuve

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ILFJ You're having a laugh, innit?

How are you so fucked up?
I know the conversation got distorted after the drug talk but I feel it's relevant.

I am truly anxious and worried. Never been this stressed for this long. Anxiety attacks every day where I panic and start googling symptoms and questions.

I didn't want to post about it before because I thought Tuz would make fun of me while I'm just having a really bad time but anxiety got the best of me today.

I live with my girlfriend now and I can't discuss these things with her for obvious reasons.
 

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I got tested for everything, including hepatitis B. All negative.

The pain is real. Almost every joint of my body hurt (not at the same time, pain seemed to "move around"). I'm a bit better now. I noticed I was getting random sharp pain on thursday last week. But It was very sporadic, like 2-3 times a day. Then on Saturday night I took MDMA, and when I got home, all hell broke loose. I was aching everywhere. It didn't hurt a lot but all my joints were affected. Even my eyes got random sharp pain (that has gone away in the last 3 days tho).
that actually sounds like malaria or Zika almost
 

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I got tested for everything, including hepatitis B. All negative.

The pain is real. Almost every joint of my body hurt (not at the same time, pain seemed to "move around"). I'm a bit better now. I noticed I was getting random sharp pain on thursday last week. But It was very sporadic, like 2-3 times a day. Then on Saturday night I took MDMA, and when I got home, all hell broke loose. I was aching everywhere. It didn't hurt a lot but all my joints were affected. Even my eyes got random sharp pain (that has gone away in the last 3 days tho).
Sounds a bit like reactive arthritis.
 

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