anytime brother, just try to be strong for everyone by not being emotional, your fam needs you
I'm really trying. I've spent most of my day in my room just because I can't handle the silence next door. I can't bring up the subject because mama made me promise to keep it shut

. Cigarettes and casual drinking it is
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Yep, and all that because he can't face the fact that life doesn't give you shit as easily as you want it.
This is the first time ever that something like this has happened. He's a moody drunk, but it's never been more than "you guys will realise once I die.. *falls asleep*". This is like 100 times worse than anything before.
He's the guy who's responsible for my attitude towards drunk driving - which is where the disillusionment comes in. I can't believe this happened. I just want to punch him in the throat and yell at him.