Also another thing that has saddened me over the years is my capacity to hurt people. With words obviously. I realise that with friends or your girlfriend you're supposed to fight every now and then. It happens. But when other people fight they aim to miss, if you understand what I mean. They insult people, but they make sure they don't say that one thing that will
really hurt the other person. But that's not how I do things unfortunately. When someone insults me, I get cruel. I aim to kill. And it's sad because two hours later my feelings will probably have changed, it's just that there's this moment in which I am capable of saying virtually anything. And by God, it has made a lot of people, a lot of girls, resent me over the years

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I guess that, more than anything, this is about me. It's not really about her. She's just a girl. But it looks as if I'm looking for redemption.