I don't know if i can relate to your case Hoori as i never really lived in my country, also both me and my direct family are living outside our country. Still, i consider Libya home, and no matter how much i live in any other country, i never considered any other country as home. During Gedaffi's time people had little freedom, the country was corrupt, there was very little hope of change. Despite the fact that i considered Libya home i could never live in it during Gedaffi's time. But i went every year, and that more or less made up a little for being away from home. Knowing that at the end of every year you'd go back to your country, see your relatives etc. I personally think you should go for it, what can you do really individually that can change or radically improve your country? Only you know if you are ready to move to a new country, with a completely different culture, lifestyle and language than your own though.