I want to beleive in god and I beleive most people want to,the idea of a place being better than where we live now is tempting and for sure is better than just dying with no resurrection but the idea of no resurrection has been always able to convince me more than the heaven which is more for me something people invented to be able to convince poor people and make them satisfied because
the idea of a god who knows what you are going to do is not convincing,alsdo I cant beleive I do taboo stuff because of the devil,I just do it because I want to
however I wont be an athiest until science provide an idea about pre big bang universe,theists respond to this point is that the prescence of god makes him above all laws of physics,mathematics but that cannot convince me,in fact nothing has convinced me at all and the only thing I know is that I know nothing
I have been a muslim,I will try to keep on praying and fasting but will try to enjoy my life away from the restricted muslim life(no alchols,no sex,etc,..