Look im going to put this simply for JBF. No one wants to smoke, deep down no one does. If you ask any smoker if they could go back and not smoke their first cigarette, they would all say no, and JBF if you say yes then you are lying to yourself. Smokers gain nothing from smoking, claiming that it relaxes you or makes you concentrate is because they are addicted to nicotine and without nicotine you cant concentrate or feel relaxed. If you say its because you like the feeling of smoke in your throat, that feeling is the feeling of being suffocated and if you enjoy that then you are a masocist and can get it from putting your hands arround your throat, you dont get cancer that way. Do not tell me im wrong because im not. You may say that im being a hypocrite because i just went out and bought some tobacco, but im not. The reason i did is because i am a weak person and i couldnt hack the withdrawal pangs while iv got three essays in three weeks that if i fuck up will essentially doom me to not getting the grade i want at uni. I would rather just smoke for three weeks and go cold turkey when i dont need to not being getting all the pangs, its my own fault for not quiting earlier so i wouldnt be getting the pangs during the time i wrote my essays. Im sorry if that doesnt make sense, but thats just how it is, if i didnt have essays to write i would just grin and bear it, punch a wall or shout at people, but i am not risking my degree over it.