So this morning while going to work I bumped into my ex at a train station. We haven't seen each other since we broke up, 2years or so now. She's a Quebecoise, I've never felt so close to a women like I have with her. We broke...actually I broke up with her because I was terrified of being heartbroken, I knew or perhaps thought I knew that things wouldn't last because we were (still are) young and I was scared of being too emotionally invested in her so like the giant pussy whole I was I left...
Like I said earlier haven't seen her for at least 2yrs, we talked on the train, she didn't have any resentment towards me (which for some reason made me feel like an even bigger piece of shit), she moved on, and is in a year long relationship with some guy.
Now I feel like an even bigger fuck up...I regret this soo much. Since this morning she was the only thing on my mind. But before I ran into her I never really thought about her....maybe I may be thinking about her because she's out of reach...or simply nostalgic.
Either way, I had to get this off my chest, don't feel comfortable talking to my coworkers 'bout stuff like this. A big spliff and a case is what I need when I get back home.