Yourself.
It's pretty hard and hadful at the beginning tbh.
My salary is 350e which is pretty "nice" considering the situation, but still very low to accomplish anything as an individual. In other words, and in other worlds, yes, my salary is very shitty. I've come to realize that I work for around 9 hours daily with a short break and hardly any time to go pee. I already learned bunch of stuff and it's nice to see the improvement. Still, pretty tough to end your shift and realize you're good for nothing. Way too tired and way too much time in-front of a PC. It drains too much and kinda sad to think how I'll work plenty of Saturdays too, which only leaves Sunday to rest and do the stuff I couldn't do over the week. Career is a cancer for life and there's no high enough salary to be worthwhile. It might be me, but I saw happiness in other things. Either way, gotta work for that piece of bread. I'll have to keep going and move personal bouderies at work, and personal, so I see what this year holds it for me. You just get to see so many bad people, and some good, if you can even define it somehow, or at some grounds. Pretty crazy to see some folks being ready to walk on corpses of others and see the literal evil in their eyes. Some great people too, hardworkers and with their cheeks clean on moral grounds. But such life, as it is now, is nothing but a prison to me. It's hard to find joy when you see yourself in some other world.