Totally clueless.
The wages I get won't cover anything close of me getting on my feet (living separately). They pretty much cover the most basic expenses. So for these 4 months I didn't manage to save anything really. Thinking about starting some private job is absolutely impossible. Thinking about some other job is not a huge solution cause they are pretty much all paid like this (unless you have connections and I apparently I don't).
So here I sit, wonder, what the hell is this... it seems like a giant waste of time cause I can't even read or do anything I want.