The "we used to have female members before Elvin scared them away" Thread (23 Viewers)

ZhiXin

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Oct 1, 2004
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Sorry to dampen the atmosphere of this wonderful chat due to my controversy

To be honest, I have changed drastically over 1 year, from a good student to a visual-kei punk rocker/singer, with eyeliner and black fingernails. Practically I don't really care about my image. I'm also responsible for writing the lyrics.

The reason for this change is that I have 3 wounds in me, and I believe that my plight is caused by this place. Politics and "friends", sometimes I wonder if anybody will care about all these things. I already have my so-called doubts about the politics accepting foreign students and more polytechnic students, but I hope it didn't come true. And then, it really true. I see my dream getting further and further away.

As for "friends", in my secondary school days, they picked on me, but because I was busy with my O Levels and my forgiving nature, I decided to give it a go, but little did I know that they didn't tell me about collecting the O Level certificate. This hurts me deeply. Not trying to be sensitive, but not telling a person such an important issue is really over the mark.

Then comes my polytechnic "friends". all so selfish working on their own aims. AS a result my GPA dropped because of them. And now I have to serve the NS for 2 years, and I have to waste my time for another year to see which University I can enter.

No words can describe how I feel right now, but fortunately my HK friends are able to understand me, which is rather weird. Now I have to pursue my dream, but too bad this place doesn't allow me to.

I always have this statement, "Why must I be a slave for all your selfish desire?"

There are actually 2 halves of me, the punk rocker me with eyeliner, and the more normal me.

Hope I don't scare the hell out of you
 

laffayette

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Jul 11, 2006
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Wow..you had been through a lot, Xin. Thanks for sharing it with us here.

No offense but I used to hate a group of the-socalled-punkers who always messing around the street. Once I saw them been caught by the cops, not sure why though. They did look scary with ala-mohawk-hair, colored nails, eyeliners etc and one of them even kept cursing the cops.
 

ZhiXin

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Oct 1, 2004
10,321
laffayette said:
Wow..you had been through a lot, Xin. Thanks for sharing it with us here.

No offense but I used to hate a group of the-socalled-punkers who always messing around the street. Once I saw them been caught by the cops, not sure why though. They did look scary with ala-mohawk-hair, colored nails, eyeliners etc and one of them even kept cursing the cops.
One of the most coincidental thing which occurs in my life is that my life is totally a shadow of Ryuichi Kawamura, a famous Japanese singer. Both of us are left to nurse our wounds ourselves.

Fortunately I only do it on stage, but I figure out that by doing that, I'm only cheating myself and the people around me as I'm putting on a "mask". Which is why I opt to drop 75% of my visuals to only apply on eyeliner and weird costumes (cosplayer) when I choose to sing a punk-rock song. And I poseess the rare ability of using my 2 halves through my voice and costumes. Actually my character can be depicted through my lyrics.

And I don't really care about criticism from the audience or my parents, because all I want is to show people my feelings through music, and there is only 1 me around. People are born with feelings and emotions, and music is such a wonderful thing around which allow me to do this. My ultimate dream is to form a band that plays rock with some other elements added to it and to show the audience music from the hearts (combination of Luna Sea + Tourbillon, Ryuichi's bands). I don't like to feel restricted, a human should be free to express himself all the time, but of course it depends on the situation.
 

laffayette

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Jul 11, 2006
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ZhiXin said:
One of the most coincidental thing which occurs in my life is that my life is totally a shadow of Ryuichi Kawamura, a famous Japanese singer. Both of us are left to nurse our wounds ourselves.

Fortunately I only do it on stage, but I figure out that by doing that, I'm only cheating myself and the people around me as I'm putting on a "mask". Which is why I opt to drop 75% of my visuals to only apply on eyeliner and weird costumes (cosplayer) when I choose to sing a punk-rock song. And I poseess the rare ability of using my 2 halves through my voice and costumes. Actually my character can be depicted through my lyrics.

And I don't really care about criticism from the audience or my parents, because all I want is to show people my feelings through music, and there is only 1 me around. People are born with feelings and emotions, and music is such a wonderful thing around which allow me to do this. My ultimate dream is to form a band that plays rock with some other elements added to it and to show the audience music from the hearts (combination of Luna Sea + Tourbillon, Ryuichi's bands). I don't like to feel restricted, a human should be free to express himself all the time, but of course it depends on the situation.
That's the spirit, buddy :tup:

What are you up to after this? Army (like you said earlier) or music?
 

ZhiXin

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Oct 1, 2004
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laffayette said:
That's the spirit, buddy :tup:

What are you up to after this? Army (like you said earlier) or music?
Probably going to study accounting after that. Because I'm resigned to fate that my talents will never be fully nurtured.

But I will still write lyrics
 

laffayette

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Jul 11, 2006
853
ZhiXin said:
Probably going to study accounting after that. Because I'm resigned to fate that my talents will never be fully nurtured.
You can continue making music or performing, though. Do it as your part time job maybe? I would love to see you perform :p
 

ZhiXin

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Oct 1, 2004
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laffayette said:
You can continue making music or performing, though. Do it as your part time job maybe? I would love to see you perform :p
Provided that I can form a band who allows me to sing in Japanese
Because I can express my feelings easier. I think you can spot me pretty easily due to my flambouyent nature if I do perform

But mainly I write lyrics in Chinese/Cantonese
 

laffayette

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Jul 11, 2006
853
ZhiXin said:
Provided that I can form a band who allows me to sing in Japanese
Because I can express my feelings easier. I think you can spot me pretty easily due to my flambouyent nature if I do perform

But mainly I write lyrics in Chinese/Cantonese
I don't understand Japanese, but a bit of Mandarin and Cantonese.

Now you remind me of some anime characters with their unique style and music :oops:

Where/what's fave hang-out spot, anyway?
 

ZhiXin

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Oct 1, 2004
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laffayette said:
I don't understand Japanese, but a bit of Mandarin and Cantonese.

Now you remind me of some anime characters with their unique style and music :oops:

Where/what's fave hang-out spot, anyway?
Something like this, but I do it on my eyes only, and put on multiple rings



Hang out spot? Nah this place bores me, but I love to play 8-ball pool a lot.
 

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