Sorry to dampen the atmosphere of this wonderful chat due to my controversy
To be honest, I have changed drastically over 1 year, from a good student to a visual-kei punk rocker/singer, with eyeliner and black fingernails. Practically I don't really care about my image. I'm also responsible for writing the lyrics.
The reason for this change is that I have 3 wounds in me, and I believe that my plight is caused by this place. Politics and "friends", sometimes I wonder if anybody will care about all these things. I already have my so-called doubts about the politics accepting foreign students and more polytechnic students, but I hope it didn't come true. And then, it really true. I see my dream getting further and further away.
As for "friends", in my secondary school days, they picked on me, but because I was busy with my O Levels and my forgiving nature, I decided to give it a go, but little did I know that they didn't tell me about collecting the O Level certificate. This hurts me deeply. Not trying to be sensitive, but not telling a person such an important issue is really over the mark.
Then comes my polytechnic "friends". all so selfish working on their own aims. AS a result my GPA dropped because of them. And now I have to serve the NS for 2 years, and I have to waste my time for another year to see which University I can enter.
No words can describe how I feel right now, but fortunately my HK friends are able to understand me, which is rather weird. Now I have to pursue my dream, but too bad this place doesn't allow me to.
I always have this statement, "Why must I be a slave for all your selfish desire?"
There are actually 2 halves of me, the punk rocker me with eyeliner, and the more normal me.
Hope I don't scare the hell out of you